An unexpected reminder...

I'll start by getting straight to the point. I forgot all about this blog. My life since leaving school has been a very rough roller coaster ride.

I check my emails tonight and have an email saying unauthorised access attempt for another email address. I wasn't sure what the other email was used for although I did recall making it. I logged into the account (remembered the password, woot) and had a look at the linked Google products, blogger.

Not sure how someone got my password to login to this account, oh well they were blocked anyway and I reset my password.

Now what's running through my head is 3 things, do I close this account, do I recap on what has happened these past 3-4 years, or do I start from where I'm at now. I'll go with what feels best.

I don't currently label myself as gay/bi/straight. I deny it, I don't accept it. Call me weak.

I went to university after school, that lasted a couple of months. I then went back to working at my previous job doing I.T. programming. Where I have worked for the past 3 years or so. I've decided I'm going to summarise the time I have been absent from this blog.

I moved in with a school friend who's family I was close with. They were happy to have me live with them. I ended up becoming best friends with my friend's brother. I started smoking pot with him and mixing more with his group of friends. I explored new realms of this world, drugs. I was always a curious one, try everything. Trying everything made me realise that this new realm did something for me, it masked my emotions. It was my cure.

I self medicated for a bit over a year. I spent most of my leisure time with my new friend exploring the world of "drugs". During this time a strong bond was formed with my new friend. I'd forgotten that I could be leading myself down a path of anguish again.

Anyway I'm going to leave it there for tonight to see if anyone still reads/watches this. Comments are encouraged, depending on the response I will write more, I have so much to write about it has been such a hectik journey...